From the Heart of a Pastor's Kid: Keep Those Eyes on God.

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For the past 3 years, I have been attending a college focusing more on General Course and can we say Discouraging! I had a hard time with classes because I became uninterested in the content that I was learning. My mind was filled with thoughts about how I didn't need the class, how that was going to apply to my career and so on.

After years of really good classes (I am willing to admit that I was wrong in thinking that I did not need them) I am closer to graduating from Liberal Arts! This winter I will be done with general courses and finally be able to work on the final step of getting my degree. The only problem was, was that I didn't know where I was going to go...in fact, I am still very unsure of where to go!

There are not many school with TESOL majors, much to my displeasure.

So what do I do?
I start to bang my head on the table or floor, which ever I find myself closer to. For the longest time, I soaked in the troubles of my disappointment and often found myself searching and searching with no answers.

Then one day....
I recieved a message from one of the people I went on a Missions Trip with sent me a message. Now she isn't just a normal person. She is my new sister and I love her dearly. She reminded me that I just need to wait and see that this is all in God's hands. He already has a plan for me and know where I will be the happiest.

I cried.

I was so caught up in what I wanted that i forgot that it wasn't my true decision. God gave me the passion for teaching, the people who encourage me and I forgot that HE is taking care of it.

Recently, My father asked me why I wanted to be a teacher of English and TESOL. At first, I was speechless and angry at myself for not having the answer right away. After about twenty minutes of thinking, it came to me; a huge rush of hope and flaming excitement came over me.
I told him:

"Daddy, How many people can say that they change lives for a living? How many people can say that they dedicate their lives to helping others who are less fortunate in getting to where they want to be? Who can say that dad?...Sure there are nurses and doctors, lawyers, and so on. But teachers...Wow, Daddy Teachers saved me."

You see, if it weren't for my teachers, I wouldn't be the cheerful person I am now. I had so many inner conflicts in my life and once I was able to open up to the people who give an education, I smiled for real. Teachers, to me, not only teach their specialized subjects but are role models for life and play a major part in people's life.

Think about this with me. Has there ever been a teacher that has ever influenced you (Good or Bad)? I am about 99% sure that every teacher has done at least one thing (or said) to make you think even if it has shown up unconsciously. {I still question my art teacher from HS}

Changing a life for that life, is my number two goal in life (the first being to share God's word with an open heart).

I no longer worry about where I am going to go. I know where I am going now and I thank God for keeping that option in my mind. For giving me a family that questions my decisions for me to question them myself. My mother did the same just a few moments ago. Where am I going to go, mom? The only true answer I have for that:

God will show me.

-Prayer Requests:

That I will be able to wait for God's Answer
My family; that they may see the sacrifices I am willing to make to teach in other countries.
That I will be able to better retain the languages I will be learning.
That I will not be afraid.

Verse for Thought: