The Way I Are

I love to DO!
I mean, I love to do things; all kinds of things:
Baking
Cooking
Reading
Dancing
Eating
Writing
and so on....!

There are so many things that I love to do that I don't get to finish any.

Not the best life, I suppose.

I started to love decorating cakes.
Bought all the stuff for it and watched all these shows and YouTube videos on tips and whatever.
Lasted about two weeks.

Then I fell in love with writing.
I have three books in the making!

Then I fell in love with playing piano (still love it!)
I know all the keys' locations and how to play chords.
Then I stopped playing it.

Safe to say, that I love falling in love with all kinds of hobbies and have many different passions.
The one things that I do not like (or love)
Is never finishing.

You see, I WANT to finish something, to say that I am (almost) a pro at something.
But I just move on to something different.

This can be scary for someone who comes up with ridiculous scenarios in their head:
*On a date (for example)*
He- "So what is something you like to do or are good at?"
Me- *Heavily breathing as my eyes widen in panic* "I am pro at knowing random facts that I don't know are true"

Yeah, I thought that out completely.
There is no second date there >.<

Of course, this is not somethign that will happen, I just come up with these randomly about once or twice a month.

So I like to do many things. BIG DEAL!
After suffering with "worst-case" here I am
The way I are:
Completely Happy to say that I have done or tried many things.
Not exciting things.... but MY things.

My newest craze: Cookie decorating.

:D

I just...love this.

There are going to be things that I never give up.
I still love to read books.
I still love to take pictures just for the fun of it.
I still make Pinterest boards for things I may never do but love to dream about.

There is nothing wrong with dreaming.

If I didn't dream, I would be in a really bad place right now.

God is SO GOOD!
He made me!
Every fine detail about me- physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually..etc.

I no longer have to worry about what I want to do.
I have the option to start one thing and start another.
He GAVE ME that option.

I can just be.
I don't need to be freaking out about what to do or worry about anything related to that.
He has a plan. I will be where I need to be.
It makes me think of Esther.

But that is for another time.

Pray. Love. Be.
We were created to worship and honor Him
We can focus on the petty or unnecessary details but that will just take us away from His purpose.

I will do that.
That is my homework for myself.
Pray. Love. Be.

Anything that doesn't make me happy can wait in the background.
No need to worry.
Life will be rocky and it will hurt sometimes but with the Creator on my side, there is no need to stress.

Just Pray. Love. Be- With Faith.
He's Got the Wheel. <3

For My Mom.

When I look at myself in the mirror and think of what my future will look like, I begin to see things even more clear than before. I think, a lot, about the type of mother I would be and how even that expectation will be different.

Mothers <3

My Beautiful Mother and Myself <3

They are the only ones who will truly love no matter what happens in life. Sometimes I find myself hoping that my kids will one day see in me what I see in my mom. Yes, the first few years of life were blissful with smiles and tickles and laughs. The following years after in the teens were some-what rough and lonely but I think that is where the most love will jump off of. After I let go of the teen years and my resentment, I realized just how much love and self-sacrifice goes into being a mother, a real mother.

My mom is an amazing individual. I can go on and on about how she is the best mother in the world and I guarantee that other people will say the same about their mother. Looking at my mom, as a bystander or in a different angle, I can see that she is so much more. While I find her to be the best mother in the universe, I am able to see her as a person and determine that I would not mind and do not mind being like her.

My mother is a stunning individual.
Mainly speaking of my birth, as I am sure you have read in previous posts, to be so brave and faithful in God to just turn down the suggestions of doctors, that makes her a better person in my eyes. The way that she speaks is always so full of love and care. Trust me, she doesn't speak to hear herself talk. She is all about the truth and all about the rights and wrongs.

Sometimes, children feel like parents don't understand and don't care but they could not be more wrong. There were countless times, where I would fight with my mom and apologize almost instantly because I thought it through and knew where I went wrong.

Now,

The other day, I really felt love from her. Don't get me wrong, I feel it all the time through the good and bad times but this one particular day meant a lot to me.

I have this great interest Tea, Tea Cups/Pots, and well, other things that I am sure I will get to on future posts.

And Even though it was suppose to be a surprise, she bought me a tea pot and six cups.

Seems simple to you, right? but I felt (and still feel) like she bought me the world.

You see, that is what mothers do. They secretly (because to most children, we think they know nothing about us) gather information and do their best to give us the desires of our hearts. They know things that most people won't know, even yourself. 

Isn't that what mothers strive for?

To be able to give their children the world?

This same things applies to God and his relationship with us (or our relationship with him, whichever you think is the best way to put it). He tells us in Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you....."
All you need to do is have Faith.

Thinking about it now, I believe that a good mother is filled with Faith.
My mom has always shown me what Faith is.
You can see it in her eyes when she talks and hear it in her voice, see it in the actions that she takes every day.

God gives us the choice- to ask or not. Simple but complicated at the same time. We ask and we are shown the way, going through a few troubles to get the the destination and given the gift of being able to say "My Father/Mother and I did it together" (because he is a Father to the fatherless and Mother to the motherless).

One way to tell you that my mom is someone I strive to be like is because She had slipped on ice during the winter and sprained her ankle. I could tell that satan was enjoying himself as she limped to work and church for months after the doctors told her that it would be fine in a few days. Constantly asking for prayer for her family and forgetting to ask for help herself. Seeing her now, walking with no troubles, hearing her tell everyone about it with a huge smile on her face and never once did she say "oh it was because I iced it every day or the doctors were right..." but hearing her say, I just needed Faith and to pray.She is a woman of God and has so much faith but I never forget that she is human and sometimes, we lose ourselves to this world; but even so, she asks for more than just to have faith...but she believes in it, in God, with all of her Spirit.

She has a beautiful smile and a contagious laugh.
She raised us with every ounce of love this universe has to offer.
She gave us a light to follow God and our gift to her, is to seek him and believe in him
My Parents are the greatest gift my Lord has given me and until the day I go home to Him, I will honor my Father and Mother. Thanking every day for their Faith, Love, and Joy:)